Wednesday, January 9, 2013
Its hard for me not to full on believe in karmatic revenge. After all I’ve experienced in life, it seems that every good I do is countered by some form of bad. Its almost like no matter how happy I am, something has to remind me to appreciate it. At least, I think that’s the best way to see it.
I honestly do not care that karmatic is not picked up by spell checkers. I think it should be. At least its fully in the Urban Dictionary, I’d hate to have to make up a whole new word just to get across a point.
The point being that I already appreciate my happiness, and never take it for granted. So these little episodes of bad things just serve as interruptions in my life. I guess in the end, you can’t look at everything in relation to something else, sometimes stuff just happens.
I know I have to be dealing with it correctly, just jump up and fix what I can when I can, and say, “Well, at least it wasn’t the fridge.” It happens so often, though, that I’m starting to sit back, quite a bit, and say “I wonder what’s going to happen next,” and am answered pretty well promptly.
When I ponder on it, I wonder if there is ghosts in the house that get into us and cause the little mishaps that cause blunders. Or if its honestly just life’s frustrations sinking in, in a way they shouldn’t be allowed.
In the end, there are no answers to all this. Its why they made the bumper sticker “Sh*t Happens” back in the day. Its hard not to keep that mindset, no matter how good life is. Some people think I’m an “eeyore” because I’m constantly waiting for the next shoe to drop, but when it does, I’m prepared to handle it.
So, does this make me a pessimist? I mean, it shouldn’t because I’m so optimistic. I know that I’m going to continue being happy no matter what, and that we’ll make it through anything together. Why do I have to be one or the other?
In the end, I don’t consider myself either, as I think nothing is ever black and white. There is always some shade of grey to consider. And that’s where I am, smack in the middle. Enjoying life to its fullest, and being ready to fix it when it falls apart. I love this life, and there’s no way I could live it any other way, as I’d hate to be caught off guard when something goes wrong unexpectedly.